Titus 2:11-13

"For the grace of God has appeared, bringing salvation to all men, instructing us to deny ungodliness and worldly desires and to live sensibly, righteously and godly in the present age, looking for the blessed hope and the appearing of the glory of our great God and Savior, Christ Jesus."

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Just Because I'm Having Twins...

Lately, I am finding myself thanking God for allowing me to "beat the odds" by remaining pregnant yet another week.  Careless assumptions and over-zealous doctors' orders could easily make a mother-of-twins-to-be begin to feel doomed--doomed to a cesarean, doomed to a premature delivery, doomed to a stay in the NICU.  Realistically, yes, these outcomes seem to occur more frequently for twins than for singletons.  But what is the point of being so pessimistic, as if it isn't a natural or blessed thing to have twins?  I get so tired of the assumption that I will indefinitely deliver early just because I'm having twins, that I will indefinitely need/want a repeat cesarean just because I'm having twins, that things will indefinitely go awry at the 38-week mark (if I'm one of the "lucky" ones to make it that far) just because I'm having twins.

I feel like the whole of this pregnancy has been treated differently just because I'm having twins.  Routine ultrasounds every two to four weeks; routine non-stress tests every week; and talk of trying to make it to 33 weeks, hoping to make it to 36 weeks, and not being allowed to make it past 38 weeks all make me wonder why this pregnancy is treated like a rare, unnatural, risky thing... just because I'm having twins.

Don't get me wrong.  A part of me looks forward to seeing my babies so frequently via ultrasound, and all of me is reassured when my ultrasounds and non-stress tests testify to the favorable growth and development and health of my babies.  But at the same time, a part of me longs to be treated like this pregnancy is the natural, blessed thing that I know it is.  (Many of you have indeed encouraged me in this manner, and for your prayers and optimistic support I am so thankful!  It's really just the general treatment of a twin pregnancy of which I speak, so please forgive my blanket statements.)

Thankfully, my hope and trust is not in the careless assumptions of man or in the (what at times seems to be) over-zealous protocol of doctors.  Instead, my hope and trust is in the God who opened my womb and filled it with two blessings, who hears my prayers, and who already knows the end of the story.  It is from Him my joy and optimism come, for I know that His character and His plan does not change just because I'm having twins.


Jessica Pennings said...

I just love your faith, Angela! Amen, I don't think I will know your side of carrying twins but I understand all that you are saying. I'm sure it doesn't feel like it to you, but to the doctors I am sure your faith is a testament and witness to the Great God we have and serve. I'm positive they don't see faith like that of you and Travis with many twin pregnancies. I know you will, but keep trusting in the Lord, I love how He is seeing you through this pregnancy!

3 under 2 said...

It's true...so many people think that having twins is such a big deal. It's different, definitely from a singleton, but many women have made it past the 36 week mark with no troubles at all.
Just wait for the comments afterwards too...that's when the fun begins. The one I hear most often is 'double trouble'. I usually reply that they are actually a double blessing.
Stay positive. You're doing awesome!

anna said...

i know how you feel angela! the doctor i started with kept telling me that he would induce at 37......for no reason other than twins! crazy! we switched after that.

like 3 under 2 said, the "real fun" starts once they come home. the comments you will get will floor you! be prepared for this one: "are they twins?" no, they just look exactly alike, and they are dressed exactly alike, but no, they are not twins. :)

September said...

Thank you for sharing this post with us Angela. I always enjoy reading what is on your heart. Keep resting in the Lord for wisdom and good health for your babies,, at least we have a ZEALOUS GOD! That's is a whole lot better than zealous Dr.'s.
Hang in there! Smile and keep posting,,, for your hands will not have any free time after a little while! lol..

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